Two Sides, One story

                                                                                Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Songs I listened to while drawing: 
Behind These Hazel Eyes (By Kelly Clarkson, also lyrics in description) : www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJ0cZj…
Carry On My Wayward Son (Lullaby) : www.youtube.com/watch?v=opEZ9O…
Breathe Me (By Sia) : www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFGvmr…
Time: Two hours
Hmmm....so the title might be confusing. Basically, me and my bf broke up and I have two sides as of now about how I feel bout this: Anger is the masked kitsune(japanese spirit fox); Cuz I feel like he lied to me, I feel like he tried to get what he could from me, and I'll always be second best for him, so he has something to fall back on. I feel as if my heart should become ice and stay that way. And my fursona: Sorrow/understanding; I'm just devastated about this but I understand why he left, I'm extremely verbally abusive(mainly jokes like 'You're so stupid' Then I say 'I love you.') He can't take long distance, and well, he's a romantic- me, not so much. We fought about every week over something small and stupid. But he got through my walls, and I was scared about him there at first, but I was okay and happy. Then, things happened so my heart crumbled bit by bit and I didn't cry too much this time we broke up, I'm kinda just sitting here waiting for my heart to rebuild itself(into a Titanium one er something.) I've made vent art about him before. But it sucks cuz we are permanently done, and I thought he was the one- I was SURE he was. He said he wanted to try again later, but I told him, one more mess up, we're done. Oh well, things happen for a reason I guess?